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I have methods tutoring in the city every Tuesday these days. Today when i was getting home on the packed tram and train it made me have a sad thought. There is so many people in the world and my existence is meaningless. I'm definitely a positive one today. I don't want to waste my life and have not to have done or experienced anything.
How though can i make all my life decisions that will mean that my life is something and not just a waste. Not just a statistic or number. I know i can't plan my whole life out but i need a direction to go in. I have three options i want to study in 2011 environment, teaching or marketing. Where is my compass, my magic mirror or magic 8 ball to tell which to choose which would make me happy. Which will lead to success, to failure, to travel, to richest, to freedom to a life that i could never of dreamed of. A life better than the movies i want my life to be the best it can be. I want to be happy not just settling for the easiest option!

5

I just watched an old episode four corners. It was about a girl who went back to Afghanistan she had moved from there when she was six years old to England. She had the cameras follow her and meet many different girls who had lives that are nothing like hers. There were girls who were at risked of being bombed from going to school. I wake up in the morning groaning as I don't want to go to school. That" I can't be bothered". They put their own lives at risk to be educated and people like me just take it for granted. Whenever I hear of see something about other countries that aren't like Australia or aren't as fortunate as Australia it upsets me. I would want to help; I would want to be less selfish; But than a few days later I forget and more on in my selfish little life were I complain that I can't afford another pair of high heel or another dress for my already over flowing wardrobe!
The reason I watched the episode in the first place is because my English talked about the episode and my Father just happened to have taped it. We are studying 'Whose Reality'. The lives of these girls shown on the episode must have such different realities to mine. I can not imagine living anywhere else. I would go crazy without the internet; my mobile phone and Facebook. Imagine children living in third world countries their lives are so different to mine. It makes me grateful that I live here in Australia and that I have the Parents that I have.

xx

4

Today was the first day of term three.
With the it is pretty much my last term of high school. Term four is really just revision, practice exams and the real exams!
To tell the truth the end of high school really scares me. There is so many people i am friends with and enjoy talking to. All though i don't think I will be keeping in contact with all of them. I want to keep my friends I don't want to lose them. How am i meant to know who is worth fighting for?
There is one friend who used to be my everything but I can already feel the no contact ruining our friendship. With our shared past together a long forgotten memory.
DANCE ACADEMY is amazing and I am addicted to it.
That is all.

3

Okay so i stopped blogging. I had 2 whole posts and completely forgot the promise to myself I made to blog. I know that what i am saying is important or that everyone wants to know what I think/ However I know that I believe in what Isay, so i'm going to say my opinion anyway.
Today was my 'fat day' not a day where i ate too much and actually became fatter. No, I just felt that I had the need to exercise because I was fat. So I got on my brooks t-shirt and was jogging/ walking around my my backyard. I was listening to the new album released by the I clarly star Miranda Cosgrove I am now in love with the songs the lyrics are relatable and song pretty good. So now I am a fan.
Today I decided I have the need to become fit and more healthy, saying this I am not extremely out of shape. Just if someone was chasing me it wouldn't take them very long to catch up to me...
so I am planning on become more fit and while I trying to do this I thought "hey why not become more too, while i'm at it."
This is now my send off.